Til' U Do Right By Me

LOVING YOU IS STUPID, BECAUSE I KNOW YOU NEVER REALLY LOVED ME. STUPID-TONI BRAXTON


There are many definitons for ABUSE 1. to use wrongly or improperly; misuse 2 to treat in a harmful, injurious, offensive way 3.to speak insultingly, harshly, and unjustly to or about; revile;malign. 4. to deceive or mislead.


There are many forms of abuse verbal. physical, sexual, mental. 


Ladies sometimes we as woman take much more than we have to from men. We see the signs of the above early on in the relationship and decide to deal with these "little" things because we don't want to be alone, or because we think he's fine, Or because he gives us money or simply because he has a big dick and for those few minutes he makes you feel good. I used this line  from Toni's song because it says  I KNOW you never really loved  me. Loving someone who doesn't love you is stupid. I know we sometimes cannot help who we fall for and when it's not reciprocated it's hard but why keep that flame burning? When you factor in abuse, well for me that is an automatic ,Get the fuck on! Kick rocks. I cannot understand and perhaps it's not for me to understand taking any kind of abuse that you have control of.

Ladies if he slaps you once, he will again. A real man will not touch you no matter how angry he gets.If you allow him to get away with it he will try you again and again until it becomes the norm. He's sorry and you're fucked up IT IS NOT ALL RIGHT TO LET A MUTHERFUCKA POUND ON YOU!!! Under any circumstance, there is no excuse. If you are like me then you face possible jail time. Because I will bash Mr. head in and wait for heaven later.  If you are not this type. Do not give him another chance, to possibly do more damage.


If he is constantly worried about your whereabouts, those are his insecurities. Do not allow him to alter your life. Do not allow him  to dictate to  you who your friends can be and where you can and cannot go. You are able to make those  grown woman decisions for yourself. Some mistake this controlling behavior for  him "caring" about you., but that's bullshit. He wants you under his thumb at all times and he is more than likely doing some ill shit himself and don't want yall to end up in the same space.


If he calls you out your name and makes you feel badly about yourself, or constantly tells you how he is the only one that wants you. Leave that ass alone! Believe me he is not the only one. Again these are his issues and he can only make himself feel good by putting you down.Do not feed into his bullshit. I realize not everyone is as quick at the mouth as I am but if you cannot verbally take his ass down a peg, then use this time to defend yourself. You are not a bitch, you are not ugly, useless, dumb, stupid or whatever else he comes up with and  let him know you do not appreciate this. He will eventually leave you alone because he will realize that his bull won't fly.


If he wants sex and you say no. Then it's NO!!!!. If he forces himself on you then you have been raped hon, and you need to be making a police report.


These punk ass predators, I  won't say men. Prey on women with low self esteem. They will sometimes try a woman who has her shit together but they will quickly give that shit up. Trying to " break" her or "train" her is too much work. They will come with the wine and roses in the beginning. Everything will seem right out of a fairy tale. But it will all change up soon. Ladies when you see the signs don't ignore them, because the shit don't get no better.If  you are having any doubts fall back!!! Because if your gut tells you this mutha is crazy, guess what? He probably is!

Your Mother Fucked Me, But Let Me Explain....

I came by to see you, you weren’t home, and I told your mother I would come be back. She said no, but she insisted that I wait. Your mother told me to come sit in the den with her. I’m thinking she wants to pick me for information concerning our relationship. So as I’m sitting there with your mama, watching TV, she would ask me one question after the other. She ask me was I thirsty, I said no thank you Ms. Thomson, she said don’t call her Ms. Thomson, she said call her Angie, I just looked at her and said ok, Angie. Your mother went back N forth with trying to keep me, from leaving. So when she asks me if I wanted something to eat, I said yes. Angie, I mean your mama said give me a minute, she had to go to her room, for something. Baby when your mother came back she had took off her work clothes, and got comfortable, as I mumbled underneath my breath (Damn) Ms. Angie got a banging ass body. After Angie got comfortable in her favorite gown, and a glass of wine, she was good and relaxed. I was hungry, so I went and sat in the kitchen, and Angie offered me a drink, as she cooked me some deep fried pork chops, fried okra, with some wild rice. After I ate, and had a few drinks, Angie ask me did I want desert, I said if it’s not a problem, she said you just sip this drink, I got you, when she came back, you all know what happened. Ms. Thomson, I mean Angie came back into the den with a white silk rob on, her big breast was oiled up smelling real good if my memory serve me correctly, she had on some Dolce Cabaña Light Blue.

After Angie open her rob, gracefully and seduced the fuck out of me. I remembered her whispering in my ear, I want to see my daughter happy, but I know I wanted to suck your dick, and fuck you real hard. So Angie said just layback and enjoy this good pussy, I won’t tell if you won’t. He said ok, I know it is wrong, but my dick is hard and you got me wanting your sexy ass. Angie, started sucking my dick, and after she got on top of me, all I remembered was how hot Angie’s pussy was, as she kissed me all over. She got back off my dick and then put it in her mouth, as the front door opened, and it was my baby, I bust my nut all in her mouth, Angie licked up, like this shit was normal. I guess you can say I was trapped in the closet.

The moral of this story is that a “Stiff Dick” has no conscience, and a young wet pussy can be deceived the same way and men and woman knows when a man or a woman’s with weak flesh. So the next time your girls mother ask you for something to eat, you better take your ass home, or you could end up the main course on the menu. Or the next time your man’s father want to do to many things for you, you better, just say No, because your boyfriends dad, will offer you some dick to go with that money his ass is going to give you….…This is some real shit.

Are You Hell Bond

If you could take a journey with God, would you stop your sin if he let you walk with him, and give you a glimpse of what “Hell” truly is? Can you imagine when your flesh dies; your soul could live in torment forever, in hell. Your soul could have the same abilities, to hear, smell, feel, and yes touch, what you will experience, if you don’t change your ways. The problem with a lot of believers is that for generations they have told about God, or his power, but yet they have never experienced who he really is, and what he is truly about, also how miraculous his power is. You see in one time or the other, you have had a “Revelation” or some event to let you know that you did make it through on your own. Like most folks it takes “Sickness” or tragic death for the reality of what will or can go wrong in life. So many humans live for the moment, but never think about the future.

Close your eyes, inhale 3 times the next time you get in bed. As you go to sleep just try and imagine how hell can be, and can you really grasp, that a lot of people are going straight to hell. I hope it scares you enough to at least reevaluate what path you are on.

Your Pastor Fucking His Members

He’s your Pastor, you trust in him, you have faith he’s going to lead you spiritually and teach you the things of God. This man of God is married good looking but he’s a ho on the down low. Each Sunday he delivers a warm message that blesses the entire congregation. After services are over he always have to have a meeting in his office with a sister or 2. What’s fucked up about it is that many may see this, for what it is or what it looks like but because he’s the Pastor, no one speaks. Have you ever noticed that most Pastors have very attractive secretaries, and it is not mistake, their ass want some sexual stimulation while doing “Gods” business. Your Pastors flesh is weak, and you know it is but you choose to turn the other cheek. He hugs all the women in the church inappropriately, especially the sisters that have very large breast, fair skin and yes long hair. You see, you and the other ladies, turn your eyes away, because you all hate the fact the your first lady, has what you call is a wonderful man of God. The only reason they think that they want to change places with the pastors wife, is because all you see is money and prestige. Your morals, you have thrown out the church back door over the church baptismal pool. Another fucked up thing is some of the female members plot to give Pastor, some of their good “Saved” church pussy. You see the reason I say that good “Saved” church pussy. I call it church pussy is because a woman that is in church is either a virgin, or it has been so long since she has had some dick, a few presidents ago. That woman has so much cum, and freaky shit in her spirit, she will fuck anybody that will play that kiss and don’t tell game with her, especially another church member with weak flesh. That church woman who have not been touched in a while, kisses you with passion, and will fuck you better that any hooker you know. That pussy is so good it can have you speaking in tongues. You your Pastor, discerning spirit is so strong, he can smell and untouched sister, like a man can tell when she is a virgin, just by looking at her. Your Pastor after taking his time and picking the sister’s he plans to violate, he has to be careful not pick the one that will expose his game plan to the other congregation members. Before you know it your Pastor have fucked a few sisters. You see you have an attitude, with the sister who fucked your pastor, until you have gotten a chance to give him some of your pussy. Oh! Yeah you are really trying to lock this deal with Pastor all the way down, you turn your ass over and bring the real freaky shit out of your pastor, and let him fuck you deep in your ass. Now the game has changed, and your pastor is fucking half the church, and instead of the church committee removing Pastor from his position, because most of their ass is on payroll. Now you know it is fucked up you will turn your eye to sin for a check, even if your check is your only means of survival.

So, the next time your Pastor comes up to you, and tries to hug your front first, and not hug you from the side, your ass should run before you become one of his playmates in the name of Jesus. Some Pastors have been known to convince a large portion of his female congregation to go to bed with him. Do you know was is sad that the “First Lady” sees all of this most times, but because of her silent expected, and accepted spirit, she cries in the dark, with no change in the distance……If you think I’m picking on your pastor, watch his ass, and if you see what I have described, just become a watcher, and then a believer, and his dick that is used as a deceiver.

Big Girl

I'm a big girl so I can say what I am about to say, with no qualms. This woman to the left , big girl, fine as hell( pause), confident doing the damn thing. Men as we well know are visual creatures. It doesn't matter how fine, intelligent, how well you can cook or make him feel in bed.  More often than not he is looking for someone like thisfine as hell in her own right . But ladies I'm here to tell you. You are beautiful at any size. You don't have to let men dictate how fierce you are.  Everyone can't look like Bey, or Monique. But when you put on your shit, when you check that mirror for the last time before heading out. Be the best fucking thing walking. Don't go  out looking busted what the fuck is that about? Do you see this shit?

This is extreme I know. Obviously something really wrong here that some  therapy might help.  But  the shit that pisses me off about some of my big sisters is some of the shit we put on. I am all about being confident in your skin.But damn, if you are going to  wear it dammit wear it well. Make sure it  wears you well Wear that shit in your muthafucking size. Not your little sis, cous, friend. Obviously homegirl has no friends or mirrors. Just because it comes in our size doesn't mean we need to have that shit on. I'm just saying have a little pride. Confidence comes from within. If you carry yourselves like queens then you will be treated like one. No matter the size, perhaps I'm crazy, or maybe just blessed because I have no esteem issues. I've been told since I was a child how beautiful I am , how I can be anything, do anything I want. I understand that not all have had this fortune. I just want us to get it together. Another thing that pissses me the hell off. Don't allow yourselves to be treated lke a second class citizen because you have a little girth. if  it's counsel you need then get some. Just don't give up on yourselves. When that brother you want don't want that size 22, tell his ass to move on and stop taking his shit. Why the hell are you trying to please him anyway? don't believe that no one else wants you. Trust me, they do. Tell him go find what he's looking for. Just try it  is all I'm asking, love yourself, care about yourself more than anything but God.

Pussy Odometer

Your pussy is like a new car, that muthafucka starts out with no miles, but some choose to start their road trips early in life. With all the hormones in the food today, makes it almost impossible in some instances not to start due to the “Dick Pressure” that sits near its tires. When the engines start early in life, the miles begin, and if a bitch is not careful her ass will need an engine overhaul before, she get her first oil change. You wonder why a pussy look so broke down early in life, because that muthfucka been in use a hole lot before its time to take these many vacations, and the many passengers, and hitchhikers along the way. You see some of the passengers, get in and they want to ride in the car, until its time to change the tires, then they want to get out, but the next muthafucka, wants to lube the front of the car, and the back, also they want to open up all of the valves, but not caring if the car can make it across country, but this passenger is only caring about how comfortable his ass can really get. Man, this road trip gets interesting, sometimes you may have 2 or 3 riders at the same time and guess what that car had a few times on this trip it was like that. You know when you get to many riders, you can’t keep up with them. These riders, get in so quick, and make deposits in you while rolling down the highway. Some riders, are “Lickers” and some “Stickers”. Now look how many spirits you have let ride your ass.

The road trip will get bumpy, but you have the power and the control, who you let get behind and in front of your vehicle. So before you open your “Gas Tank” and let as many riders, put something inside your car and deposit whatever they have picked up in life, check yourself before you get to many miles in your pussy, and to many riders, with exhaust pipes in and out your ass, stop that shit. If you get control those who you let ride when you are young, you won’t have to worry about that “Pussy Odometer” going pass the point of no return. If your pussy reaches a certain amount of miles, your “Crank Shaft” may not have enough amps to crank it up anymore, any your walls can’t hold the current oil treatment. Some pussy got so many miles on it you can tell just by the way the car is rolling down the street, that you don’t want to ride, because you just may fall in that hole.

Side piece pimp

Call me a ho, I don't really care. I've got to get mine while the getting is good. Everyone knows that looks don't last always, and I'm going to utilize my assets to the fullest. I can't help it that men are visual, sexual creatures. I can't help it if all I have to do is flash a smile their  way  and men become puddy in my hand. I'm about getting that money, and that's all I'm about. I don't give a fuck about your wives, girlfriends. That is your issue not mine. I have a boo too. Now what? We kicking it or what? If you're comin' my way bring your wallet  because I'll be needing you to buy me some shit from gate, take me somewhere tropical. Point blank  if we fucking you paying for this  and I'm going to juice your ass quick as I can. I got men stuttering, old men wishing for younger days. Don't worry pops if you got that cheddar, I got some for you too. You  don't even care if my ass can read or even process a thought into a sentence. You simple weak muthafuckers,  y'all  will do whatever I want you to, to get at me.Your dumb asses will risk relationships, careers and lives  to get your dicks wet. How stupid can you be? All this, just because you want  braggin rights.. " I fucked that ho". You never tell them how much you PAID my ass though. It's cool because while you pumping that ass and really believing you are  baggin' it out. My account is looking lovely! Bet you don't tell your boyz about that.  Men been the same since the beginning of time. Eve proved we had the power. I can't feel sorry for you, I can't waste my time catching feelings and shit for you. I don't want to be your wifey. I come to take all that your willing to give and move on...Did you check my pic at the beginning of the post? Sure you did, it says it all...Kiss my perfectly shaped, plump, round, paid ass!Call me a ho, you're just mad because the game has changed.